"When you hold resentment toward another, you are bound to that person or condition by an emotional link that is stronger than steel. Forgiveness is the only way to dissolve that link and get free."
There is one person I want to acknowledge in this blog entry. I have been racking my brain. I guess this is a hard blog for me to write about about…
OY VEY.
Ok, well this entry would have to be addressed to my cousin. She is my only 1st cousin on my mom’s side of the family. I have so many fond memories of her. But we had a falling out. And I have been angry with her since. I so upset by her actions. She has only met my daughter once and I don’t even think she has met my husband ever. She was always involved in my life. Until my grandfather passed away in Nov 03’. She had a huge falling out with her father my uncle. Which of course I respected their falling out. But by not showing up when my grandfather passed away, was going too far. And when our grandmother was falling ill and dying she was nowhere in sight. It breaks my heart. I was so hurt by her actions. I decided that she was not the type of person I wanted in my life. She was overly selfish. But when my daughter was born she met with me and my sister and family for breakfast. But there was this feeling that I was not ready to let go. She had broken the trust, respect, and love I had for her. Well I have never been able to fully forgive her. But tonight I will make peace. To my cousin, I forgive you. I will not forget the pain you caused and the distrust I have for you but I forgive your actions. Instead of holding on to the anger I have had for you. I will remember our good times. So thank you for the love you showed me. And maybe one day, we can move past this.
Sincerely,
Me
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